Every part of her exudes confidence. She is full of life and love. She moves and breathes excitement and happiness. And she doesn't know any other way to be.
Despite a stylist at the ready, she selects her own threads on a whim. It's a no brainer when you're two. Because stripes and skirts on this girl? It just works.
I wonder at what point that changes. Why does growing up bring with it self consciousness? Uneasiness in ones own skin. Dissatisfaction with what is. At least in my experience it does. And I'll bet I'm not alone.
I spent a great deal of time after becoming a Mumma lamenting what I had become. As if all I was, was what I could see. Learning to look beyond that is a constant and continuing battle. It's not so much caring about how others see me. Rather, it's about how I see myself.
// drop shoulder knit top //
I look at these and my first reaction is to pick the flaws. Two eyes, which scream broken sleep. Hair desperate for a colour and restyle. And a body, which is softer and foreign in shape. There's something really wrong with that, isn't there?
The reality is I have an eleven week old baby who feeds and wakes. Just as a baby is supposed to. And how I look reflects that. Just as it is supposed to. But what I see? When I really look?
I see what those girls of mine see. A Mumma full of fun and craziness. Living in the moment by catching kisses and chasing cuddles. A memory making tickle monster. I see the laughter of a person head-over-heels in love with this life. And that reminds me that I'm still me. I'm there. Just packaged a little differently. At least for the time being.
Target's Autumn/Winter 2014 kids range has just hit stores. Welcome the change of season with on trend outfits designed to weather even the most spirited littles.
Disclosure: We were decked out in some new threads to try and keep by the lovely folk at Target. No payment was offered or accepted.